“FUCK THIS WORLD! I’m fucking this world with all I’ve got! I’m gonna ravish her like the woman of my wildest dreams, hold her tight with my firmest grip, penetrate her with my most powerful thrust, and claim her with my most fierce passion!” Man shouted out loud in his thought.
For quite a while, Man has been feeling restless. Something was amiss, yet he could not put his finger to it. He was a top student at school, envied by the other boys and admired by the girls. He started to feel stressed out and depressed. After graduation, he landed in a well-paid, respectable professional job. He did not find the money, the prestige or the technical challenges satisfactory. After jumping over a few corporate ships, he decided to veer off the well-laid-out career path.
In the midst of all the above busy-ness, he met a girl. She was very pretty. Of all the girls he’s ever met, she also happened to be the first one who could keep up with his rapid train of thought. The sparks of chemistry lighted the fire of passion, one thing lead to another. It was not long before they both ended up in bed, naked. Sex was great. They made love regularly, sometimes twice or even three times a day. However, his relief from stress and depression was short-lived. Their initial passion dwindled with familiarity and routine. Love making felt increasingly more mechanical and distant. He knew the relationship would not last.
When it was finally over, he experienced a sudden surge of life. He did not know what it was. But he felt like a bird out of the cage. It was the same emotion he felt when he handed in the honours thesis during his final year at university and when he waved goodbye to his colleagues at the office of his last job. The image of his favourite poster leaped out at him: the dark silhouette of a dolphin in mid-air right above the rising sun. He had always been the thoughtful, non-impulsive type. Yet it was a love-at-first-sight affair when he first saw this poster. The blue ocean and sky, the orange rising sun, the graceful dolphin’s powerful thrust, spoke volumes to him.
He did not bother asking for its price. He bought it right away. And it had been hanging in every room he’s had ever since. Fifteen years had gone by. The poster had been blu-tacked through some ten different walls in various suburbs scattered across the city. It had even been taken over multiple road-trips across the country and flown abroad to a foreign country. His love for the poster was as strong as when he first laid eyes on it. It had been one of the few constants in his life. Sometimes he wonders if he is more in love with the poster than he was with his ex. The caption of the poster reads: Leap of Freedom.
This morning, as if possessed by the spirits, a sudden urgency took hold of him, a seething desire burned red hot in his groin. But instead of an erection, the heat swelled upwards, filling up and sinking into his abdomen. The rest of the steam continued to rise and then swirled around his chest. It spiralled deep down into his heart, solidifying into a dense ball of energy.
BANG! An explosion went off in his core. His eyes were closed the whole time. Yet he swore that he saw a flash of white light illuminated the entire sky of his inner world. He was enveloped with light. He also felt waves of energy emanating outwards from his chest and stomach to the rest of his body, reaching every finger, toe and hair and then beyond into the surrounding space. He was engulfed with warmth. His body trembled and shook with delight. Involuntarily he tilted his head backward, arched his back, thrust his chest forwards, opened his mouth, and moaned in ecstasy…
“Whatever that was, it was better than sex!” Man made a mental note. Relaxed and satisfied, his body was still feeling the bliss of the delirious experience. He noticed instead of feeling spent and sleepy after sex, he was incredibly alert and buzzing with energy. “That was amazing. That was pure bliss! Nothing in my life came close to that! I want more of that. I want it every day. I want to experience that in everything I do. I want that in my every waking moment. I would give up everything for that!”
And then it hit him! “This is it! This is what I’ve been looking for! The Holy Grail! The answer to all my questions! The cure for all my blues!” Man was savouring his Eureka moment!
“But what is this? Is it a feeling? Is it an idea? Is it even real? Am I dreaming?” Man pinched his nose. It hurt. He was not dreaming.
“Does it have a name? Should I give it a name? Pleasure? Happiness? Joy? They don’t feel quite right. They are incomplete… I’ll leave the naming for now.”
“More importantly, what am I going to do with it? Well, I definitely want it every day. I want to make sweet love to it all the time. Wow, this is turning into a committed loving relationship! I better start calling it ‘her’ instead. She is so incredibly beautiful, so much more mysterious and enigmatic than the Mona Lisa! The world must see her! Her light dispels all darkness! Her love cures all sadness! Her glory is second to none!” Man was seized by a new-found religious fervour.
“Yes, this is what I’m gonna do! FUCK THIS WORLD! I’m fucking this world with all I’ve got! I’m gonna ravish her like the woman of my wildest dreams, hold her tight with my firmest grip, penetrate her with my most powerful thrust, and claim her with my most fierce passion!” Man shouted out loud in his thought.
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